I'm looking for a passionate PHP Website programmer who LIVES in the Toronto / Ontario area, I might consider somewhere else..., willing to work on your own hours. I'm an IT Manager / Systems Administrator, with over 14 years in the IT Industry. (mostly Websites creation, maintenance, networking, firewalls, mail, etc).

All I need is a PHP Website programmer who's interested in developing a completely new concept website, that has the potential of changing the Internet as we know it. (yea i know we've all heard it before).

I just want to say one word: NOOSPHERE

I decided to post here, because posting in a normal location, like craigslist, people would think i'm crazy... At least here in this community people understand the concept, and hopefully it will ring true with someone here...

the concept will eventually envision the technology utilization of p2p protocols, mini websites, small processor chips, etc and more.

I will be supplying the servers, the Co-location, and the bandwidth out of my own pocket. The returns in your "time" to help develop the website is ownership at 25%, and 30% of the "net profits" from google addsense revenue generation. (eventually other revenue streams will be put into place).

I'm looking for someone who wants this to be a project of theirs, because it MEANS something to them. Just like it means something to me. In order to save you and I a lot of time, and a lot of people sending inquiries. if you can spend a few minutes and look up these topics, which will give you an idea of what i'm trying to create. it would help out a lot. If you understand these topics, then you know my creation project will be directly related to them:
 
"noosphere"

"global consciousness"

noosphere.princeton.edu

2012: The Return of Quetzalcoatl

http://www.astrojourneys.com/cropcircles.html

http://archiv.fgk.org/01/MilkHill-01/20010812MilkHill-1-desktop1.jpg


I want to start re-wiring the internet aspect or the "neural network" aspect of the Internet. and I know how. I had an eureka moment from within....

I'm wanting to do my morning meditation, my.. (darn what's that word again for early morning meditation??)..,eh, but i find it soooo hard to get up in the  morning.
 I have a morning ritual anyways:
#1 wake up at 6:30am,
#2 get to the GO Train for 7:55am
#3 get to the office by 9am

so why can't I add another hour to my morning ritual? I noticed I don't stay up late. I'm in bed by 11pm. I got woken up at 4:40am this morning by the company pager, since a server was acting up. I fixed the problem, and it was 5:15am anyways. Sooo I said ok, well that's obviously a message telling me to smarten up. I got my blanket, and my mediation cusion, and went to the back yard to enjoy some "me time".

It was lovely. The birds were chirping nicely, the tree was trying to hug me with its swaying, and the light breeze was whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

I'm at the stage, where I can call forth? sense my inner energies, and quiet my mind for at least 30 seconds...lol (I'm almost finished "the power of now").
And now? I'm at work, had my coffee, did my daily googling, and OH, btw, ya gotta check out this new cool website www.mygazines.com , great place to read magazines for free. I'm gonna upload lots of spiritual ones.

But all in all, I feel sooo relaxed, and at peace. I guess (god I hate to say this), I gotta use nike's advice: "JUST DO IT"

wish me luck tomorrow morning...lol

I found an interesting article at the New York Times, and had to write a blog about it.

I posted it on my personal blog here:New Agers on the rise!

Let me know what you think.

William

I just wrote a blog entry, on the bullshit show they produce. They basically try and debunk the New Age movement, and I wrote a review telling them they're full of bullshit themselves.

If you want to see my review, and the show itself (links to the youtube show), it's here:

Penn and Teller, get your facts straight on Yoga and Tantric Sex!

Give me your feed back too!

William

I was to write about "Kundalini IV", and I will, it was a good "session", but I want to talk about something that happened last night, and I’m hoping someone "out there" who might know what happened can give me some suggestions.... let me explain. and… here goes Kundalini V (unexpectedly)

I was up late last night, and listening to a song from Gary Jules: Mad World, and I got really sad. The song resonated with me in a big way. I wrote a poem concerning my boys, and well I had a really deep soulful cry. It was one of those that you "needed", to clear things up. I know we all have them at one time or another. Well, without getting into too much details, the last few days, I was talking to God, and asking him to help me "re connect" with the world. (You may or may not believe this, but I believe the world and all of us in it are connected). ). I've always known this connection, but I've never really been able to feel this connection.

The thing is, because I've always been able to sense this connection but not feel it, it has always made me feel the opposite, disconnected. And it’s because of this knowledge, that I've strived all my life to be enlightened. It also helped, that I was reading a book: Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch, after watching his movie. Oh, btw? Go and see the movie, and read the book! Anyways.

I had my cry, and was in my bed, with a little bit of sniffling, and wiping my tears. I laid down, and started talking to God again for the same thing, and well, to help me. The truth is I don't know the exact moment I noticed it. If it was before I was talking to God, or while, or after I finished talking to God. I... noticed a sensation in my chest. Now, this wasn't a unique feeling. In fact, I have felt it a few times before in my life. I just thought it was "Gas", or maybe some weird bodily spasms, or whatever. That it would go away, and it always did after a few minutes. Thing is: it always, always happened after a deep cry.

Now, I want to explain a bit about the cry. Eh, everyone cries, and I’m not ashamed to admit it. I have light cries, I have hard cries. These are the releasing ones. The ones that help you out, and make you feel really good for a while. The ones that helps clean up "old crap" that's lying around. Kinda like dusting the cobwebs out, and I know you’ve had them: we’ve all had them. and then I have DEEP cries. The ones that go right into the core of you. The ones, that actually feel good.. Hard to explain, anyways. Hope that helps clarify?

What happened? I started to have a "bubbling sensation" in my chest. Where? Right in the middle of my chest. NO, not my heart, that's off to the side. Now the thing is, lately, I have been thinking about, and been working with Kundalini. And I noticed it. I mean REALLY noticed it for the first time. I guess, because before: I dismissed it. SO, I said. OK, I think this is interesting. (all in the span of a second). Let me do my deep breaths, and relax, like in my Kundalini class. I put my hands on my chest, and took deep breaths. I focused on my third eye, and just tried to relax. I felt aware of the sensation, and I noticed that it was a really interesting sensation: its hmmm kinda like a fizz, you know the candy you buy that's a powder? and you put in on your tongue? It fizzles and pops. Well, it was kinda like that. And it was focused on my chest.

I calmed myself for a few minutes. Then I noticed something. . . . It was moving! No bloody lie! It was moving. It was going up my chest, and I felt it a bit in my throat, and then, I felt it in the front of my head, and then it slowly... seemed to seep away. It just disappeared. This all lasted about 3 to 4 minutes. It wasn't quick, but gradual. All this time, I was relaxed, and aware of the sensation. When it was moving, all of it was moving, and nothing was lingering in my chest. Afterwards, I was relaxed, and focused, and somewhat content. I felt, really felt... ok with myself.

SO, I’m asking anyone out there: what do you think? Now, being a techie, I did some research. I looked up the chakras. And found that the chest Chakra is the Anahata. So I read up on the Anahata Chakra. And noticed a few things:

Location: heart region, cardiac plexus
Place Of: Compassion
Spiritual Qualities: Psychic Healing
"In Balance" Positive Qualities: vision, form, color, ego, Karma, selfless service, intellect
"Out of Balance" Negative Qualities: sorrow, fear, shame, sadness, treachery, delusion, foolishness.

See where I’m getting at?  (bolded) So, I then found another reference link here, about the very same thing. And I got to thinking. If you read up on my blog post Kundalini III, you notice how I explained the energies and the way I was feeling, and sensing everything. The whole event seemed to flow, as in a clear, defined sensation. This didn’t feel like that. It felt… Distorted. So I’m thinking. Maybe I was able to sense it, and maybe it was negative energies that weren’t compatible with me? And I was able to channel it out of me. OR, It was that I haven’t learned to harness the energies from the Anahata properly?

SO, again, what do you think? Am I stretching it thin? I’m asking you, the reader, cause who do I ask? Go to the library and look it up? Go to my doctor? Lol Anyways. I hope someone makes a comment, and help me out.

Nite nite.

Moonlight Reflection

As I sit here, typing away, and thinking what to say, I have to admire the whole situation I’m in, right this moment.

I'm sitting at my desk, and I’m looking at my hands and for some strange reason, it almost feels like they are somehow separate from me. That it takes a split second longer for them to communicate with my brain, and move the way I want them too. Hmmm yes, I feel slightly disjointed, slightly disoriented. But again, that doesn't fully explain how I am right now.
I look around the room, (a bit messy I have to add), and I really notice that everything seems very sharp and clear, very vivid, as if there's an extra amount of colour splashed in everything. I get up and walk around the room, looking at every object I can see, and trying to figure out how my head is feeling.

I'm a Techie at heart, and I find it hard for me to "follow" on blind faith, so I tend to question everything. I try and think about how I was feeling, and what I was seeing just a few hours earlier. And everything seems different. I'm calm, and collected, so I don't feel bad in any way. In fact, I'm happy, content, and full of energy. And I KNOW, I won’t be going to bed any time too soon lol. But, for some reason, which I find it hard to explain, the room seems a bit... disconnected from me. Almost like I was sitting in front of a huge TV, and it was the camera that was moving around, and my eyes were just following. I feel my eyes in my head, and I feel as if my brain is moving around in my skull. (not violently, but gently.) That's the best way to explain it, is to say there is definite sensation all over my head. No bad feeling. no, its not a headache. I do get them once in a while, so I know how to relate.

There is a bit of pressure, but it’s not in one specific location. If I would guess the area, I would have to say its mostly focused in 2 spots above my eyebrows, but below my hair line. Hmmm, yea. covering most of my forehead area... but its split, and not split.. anyways. again, not easy to explain. So, by now, you're wondering what's this all about. Well, its simple. I just came back from a great Kundalini Yoga class.

This is Part III, and I’m gonna continue this story another day (soon!). This is my journey into Kundalini, and I know in my heart, this is what I want to do, for the rest of my life. I feel this is the next chapter of my life, and my awakening into a more vivid, and real world. Wait till next time, and I’ll tell you how the class went, and how I felt. Stay tuned for “Kundalini flowing: Part IV” (cute title?)

 ---------------------- I wrote this blog entry late last night, after my yoga class, so I could be as exact as possible when explaining how I felt. I went to bed, relaxed, and said a little prayer and a few "Whahey Guru's", cause I think my house has negative energies. I woke up soooo refreshed and wide awake. Man I feel great. Ok, gonna post this entry.

So, I’ve been to my Kundalini classes a few times now, and I have a "feel" for what it’s all about.

At the end of the "physical" part of the class, I’m told to relax on the mat, and I’m told to let "my self go" from my toes, all the way to my forehead, which will help me focus on my third eye. Taking deep and slow breaths. I understand the concept of the third eye, being the top portion of my Chakra. So I won’t get all "mystical" on you, it’s not my style. I’m an IT Manager after all, and it’s in my nature to be scientific.

I then hear the instructor tell me to think of a nice safe place where I can relax. For me, it’s in a field of tall grasses and flowers. Always has been, always will be. Strange, that I haven’t actually (physically) been to one and laid in one, even though I’m from “the country”! I’m to imagine the sun washing its rays over me in warmth, and try and feel the energies around me. After that, some nice music is played, and I relax and dream about that time and place.

So, what happens? I don’t know. Here’s what I can tell you happens to me so far. As I’m thinking of the field, and the sun’s glowing heat on me, I can sense my skin tingle, kinda like when there’s no circulation of blood? Like as if your feet are sleeping. Now that’s not everywhere on my body, but in parts of my body. THAT is something we all can understand. BUT, that’s not the part that… has me.

I DO feel a sensation at times wash over me. I feel it comes in different parts and spurts of my body. This is on top of the tingling I feel. It feels like its substance, that’s its on top of me and inside of me at the same time. It comes and goes, and I don’t know if it’s connected to how well I concentrate on my safe place. I do feel it’s an energy of a sorts. I don’t feel angry, or frustrated, or any kind of negativity at all. I do feel at peace.

What I do know, especially at the last session, that I was really frustrated from the day, and I was having difficulties focusing. And, as well, I didn’t feel much of that energy. SO, I think there is a correlation. I also, :$ had a bit of a cry, like as if I’m letting go of the shit of the day. I shouldn’t be all that embarrassed. Anyways, the thing that gets me, is I’ve been told at least of two things I can expect from the classes.

#1, that most people when they start out, crying for some reason. In fact, I’m told, that it’s a joke to see which person in the class will cry. So, I don’t feel so bad. When I mentioned my crying, several people in the class said they cried when they first started out with Kundalini. Funny thing is, the instructor must have seen that I was shredding some tears, cause close by was a box of Kleenex… lol again: :$

The 2nd, is that people will notice the energies, not all at once, but in parts and spurts. So, it seems I’m on my way.. Afterwards, I was invited by the instructor Bal, to join her, and I think her sisters? For some bread. (had to Google it) Its called Paratha. It tasted really good with the butter and yogart.. I’m such a sucker for free food.. now if I could find a woman that can cook like that.. *sigh*. Anyways….

The real question still is: Are these energies I’m experiencing, or am I just imagining them? Time will tell. But. For me? I’m starting to believe…..